A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams-and finding the life we deserve. Holly talks candidly about a subsequent abusive relationship, her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex and the infamous parties, as well as what her relationships with her Girls Next Door co-stars, Bridget and Kendra were really like. In several passages, she recounts episodes of severe depression while living at the mansion. But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it. Here are 10 of the most shocking revelations from Madison’s book: 1. Losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But like Alice in Wonderland after she plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion-including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show-quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's #1 girlfriend. The real, untold, and unvarnished story of life inside the legendary Playboy Mansion-and the man who holds the key-from the woman who was Hef's #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.Introducing memoirs, or “a way to discuss people without bullying somebody,” Parker explained.įor the comedians, reading a memoir allowed them to speak as “experts” on a celebrity without having to do copious amounts of research because, in theory, the memoirist is sharing everything you need to know about them. “The conservatorship information came to light and we felt really uncomfortable speculating about what was going on with Britney Spears,” Hamilton recalled.īut the idea of a pop culture-comedy podcast still intrigued the two, and so they began to think of ways to analyse pop culture figures without bullying or speculation - one where they could take words directly from the source. Before there was Celebrity Memoir Book Club, there were two other attempts by Parker and Hamilton to carve out a niche in comedy podcasting, starting with Hold On One Second We’re Talking About Britney Spears, which ended as rumours were bubbling that Spears was being held in a controlling conservatorship against her wish.

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